I feel old...

It's official, I finally feel old. I can't believe I'm already here. Aren't our 30's suppose to be "thirty, flirty, and thriving?" 

I remember being a little kid, with a TON of energy, being raised by my mom who was in her thirties. She seemed sooooooo old to me at that age. She was always so tired, had headaches, and constantly wanted to take a nap. Ahhhh, but, now I am beginning to understand...

Not a day goes by that I don't wake up unrefreshed, feeling like I have slept on a pile of rocks all night, and then ran over by a semi truck. My body aches, my head pounds, I feel swollen all over, I am sooooooo tired, and at some point throughout each day I always think to myself "I need a NAP!" 

But it doesn't stop there. I not only feel old and tired, I am starting to look old and tired. Notice the evidence below in Exhibit A and Exhibit B.  

Each day I ask myself a few questions, predictably....

Holy Dark Circles and bags!?!? How can I make those go away? Where did all of those freckles, age spots, and moles come from? When did I start getting wrinkles? Where have my eyelashes disappeared to???

With how I have been feeling lately, I was pretty sure I must have cancer or some other life threatening illness. (How else to explain the feelings, the pain, the digestive track problems, 2 miscarriages, the headaches, and the tiredness.) But, after a few doctor appointments and check-ups that all came back fairly positive, it's all starting to sink in... I'm not dying... I'm just getting "OLD"! 

Crap! Seriously! Ugh!

So, where do I go from here? I have got to believe it can only get better. I hope it can't get any worse anyway. My mom is now in her fifties and seems to have more energy and looks way better than I do in my thirties so at least I have that to look forward to.  

I want my old self back; that's for dang sure!